Changes by a cup pf coffee
Have you ever felt that sometimes the power of change is stronger than your own will power? Of course, there is always something hidden inside our heads like the things we wish for and hope for to work and happen our own little ways. But that’s not the case no matter how frustrating it gets. There is just too many forces revolving around us that sometimes if not most of the time, the situation just gets too overwhelming to handle and almost drive us to the border of insanity. Despite this, we still work on our goals and wait patiently that all our efforts result towards the right direction. Although, for me there is another direction that somewhat disguises as an accidental blessing. And this has always been the case when it comes to almost anything. Just like a small decision of getting a very unfamiliar blended English toffee mocha in a local coffee shop the day before a major interview in a huge architectural firm. I only drink coffee occasionally, like once in a blue moon, but I thought I had to use this $1.00 off coupon before it expires and so I decided to buy a cup. Ok, there are multiple reasons why I got a cup of coffee, I was feeling light headed after working 9 hours with just one meal and both hunger and thirst makes me just want to collapse. I do not like the idea of driving in the freeway in this miserable feeling going home. And so the coffee entered my mind. In short, that strong coffee concoction kept me awake all night. Given this, I turn into panic knowing that I have to be mentally sharp the next day. But I forced myself to sleep and by the time my wandering mind got tired it was already past 3 am.
I am a very detailed planner ever since. I forecast my life in such a detail and systematic way. However, in irony I am also the most spontaneous person I know being an evident creature of habit. I write things down all the time before I do anything. Yeah, I guess including when to have sex and take a shit….lol! I am just kidding.
I guess what I am getting at is, no matter how carefully planned and insanely detailed I come up with my plans, the Universe has a way of telling me that what I know I want and need is not good enough for me and that there are better things out there to look for that I should focus on. As stubborn as I get sometimes, the Universe has a very strong way of putting up a discipline upon me. Now I can certainly say that the Universe has a way of saying that there is no single person who is entirely in control of his life.
More seriously speaking, I have learned to embrace the goodness of it all. The coffee put me in a very drugged feeling this morning that my inhibitions and filter are turned off. Imagine, just a simple coffee can turn my entire day around. I’m still in bed typing this and I am shouting at myself to get up and get ready soon.
Come to think of it, the things that work for me are the ones that I let unfold by itself. So I will let this day unfold itself to me, less worries and no stress. As Pumba and Timon sings to Simba in the Lion King…..HAKUNA MATATA!
It means no worries.
So why changes? I am moving to Colorado for 3 months coming mid May. The divorce judgment is coming out in a few weeks and I am in love all over again…not just with another human being but this time with myself as well.
